February 2009


Are you one of those who can say “I love my job”?
Wish I would be one of those. I have, the worst job I ever had… well, It’s the worst administration and management.
I am actively search to get in the Government to finally breath a lil.
Meanwhile, I am collecting debtors for an agency hired by a major Cell cie… Let me tell you that I have learn here the meaning of “It’s all about money and power”. They literally menace you if you are unable to make a certain number of money. You just feel that your job is at stake every minutes. They say that if you don’t make your number, you are not putting enough effort; like we are not working at all! And all that for a salary that places you near the edge of poverty.
We are busting our asses out and it’s not enough. No recognition. Nada.
So you just keep on stressing and stressing and more it goes more I feel I am going back into anxiety crisis. That means stopping working for a while and pills…. They won’t drag me there, I swear!
Change job they will say! I am so trying… but I am so tired, I don’t want to change and change again. I am waiting for my opportunity in the Gov.
So as I stress… I still wish to win the 6/49 and “Bye suckers!” … I would have earn my place in the sun….

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Oh no, this couldn’t be more unexpected
And I can tell that I’ve been moving in so slow
Don’t let it throw you off too far
Cause I’ll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you’re the only one breaking me down like this
You’re the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I’m around you I’m predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it’s crazy but I’m hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you’re the only one breaking me down like this
You’re the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you’re everything I’m wanting
Come to think of it, I’m aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you’re the only one breaking me down like this
You’re the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you’re the only one breaking me down like this
You’re the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

-Acceptance

He once was a friend. But he suddenly became an enemy. Sometimes he is silent, sometimes loud. In the past, you saw him as an allie and all the lights he sowed were comforting. Didn’t he introduced you to “your life”?
But now he is a notorious hunter that takes from you the most important.
He now shows you the truth by doing this.
He makes you stand alone, waiting for the release of the prisoner he made. But it won’t happen until you lose patience and go. You wish to crash is square head, I can feel it, but you can’t, for, he is not yours and he is useful… He is so sly…
Patience, sooner or later, he will be defeated.

Maikan

Isis was the daughter of Nut, wife of Osiris, and mother of Horus. She was sometimes called Eset. When Osiris was killed by Set, his body was set adrift in the Nile and Isis began her search for him. When she found him, Set learned of it and stole his body, chopped it into pieces, and threw it into the water again. Isis retrieved her husband and reassembled him. Isis was celebrated at one festival called The Lychnapsia, the Festival of Lights, on August 12, to commemorate seeking her spouse in the darkness by torchlight, and her processions resembled those of Bastet.

Isis instituted marriage and taught women the domestic arts of corn-grinding, flax-spinning, and weaving. As mother-goddess, she introduced the practice of agriculture. Her early character as the Great Enchantress was reflected in her magic powers and in her knowledge of the arts of medicine, which she and Thoth taught to humanity.
Goddess of: Love, Sexuality, Ceremonies, Health and Healing, Immortality

Oh! Joy! We passed a week that looked like spring and since yesterday, it’s snowing again. I can’t say it isn’t beautiful and that I don’t like my country, but at this time of year I’d rather begin to see the grass!
Snow snow snow, lil white stars falling from the sky.
Walking in the evening when big snowflakes falls from the sky is magic. It creates a special light in the darkness of the night and even the smells and sounds are different.
Even better when you live outside the city. I am bless to live such a place.
But I can’t wait right now for camping season and pass to –20C to +20C!

To me, he is the blood in my vein
The one that keeps me sane.
He is the air I breathe
The water that I need.

To me, he is the Sun that lights the darkness
The moon that keeps me speechless. .
He is the spirit that comforts me
The Entity that haunts me freely.

To me, he is the wine that spins my head
The drug that keeps me addicted.
He is the fire that keeps me warm
The definition of charm.

For to me, he is my whole world, my Life….

I went back skating twice…. After more than 10 years. What a shame! Won medals in Regional competitions and provincials and feeling so uneasy on my skates!
Ok, my blades are due (They are putting new blades on as I write!) But even there, would it really change something? Wish I could have the chance to try some spins and jumps… it’s not allowed in arena when it’s free skating…. sad…
I miss my sport a lot. But even though I would like to go back, I am now too old for clubs and competitions… *suckers*
Can’t help myself laughing and feel ashamed when I think about being unable to break properly at high speed!
Oh well! Hopefully, it will all come back in time!

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